Karen's:))

Well, night again.  That means it is 6 weeks sharp until destination boyfriend. I am so excited that words STILL can't explaine.  Well I have been very frustrated with him lately, cause he haven't had internet and all.. But now he evidently got a job so now he will be even less avaliable. I am trying to comfort myself with the fact that it IS only 6 more weeks and the previous 6 weeks has gone in high speed BUT then we spoke every day. It was liveable then. Nit terrible cause we saw each other every day. Without that, it is empty and I am getting more depressed by the minute really.

But I'll live. It's not like it's the first time I've waited several months. It just sucks that I actually could have been leaving the 29th November.   But it's ok. I don't think we will be CELEBRATING new year cause I will be in Antalya at 14:30, then I am sure I will need some kind of food, then we are gonna find a bus that goes to Marmaris which according to Halil was 6 hours or something from Antalya, then find the hotel, and by that time I am sure it will be like 11 in the night, and if we were to go out celebrating I would have to shower (which I need to to anyway) and get ready for out-celebrating and I really don't think I will have the energy to do that. But it's not important, the important thing is that I will in fact be with my boyfriend at the end of the year and finally get my long lost new years kiss! 

Now I am having a book discussion with my best friend through soon to be 11 years in MSN, I never thought that day would come where we would discuss books.. Well, that's what he said a couple of years ago when we started discussing football too.  But by all meens, what haven't we discussed.  We have the best friendship of all times. Not cause we are talking every day or anything, but because we are not. We did before, every day. He has been the best support of all my life. Ever since I was 13 he have supported me every step of the way to the life I have now, I think I would not be as good as I am now if it were not for him.   We don't speak so much any more, he is busy with his girlfriend and his job, I am busy with Turkey, but the thing is that when we speak, we can speak as well as IF we were speaking everyday.  And that's good friendship :)  My whole family loves him as well, and I really like his girlfriend. So :)  But I miss having a real Karen-Raymond discussion!!!!!