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FINALLY Mr.Boyfriend decided to come online!  I have not spoken with him since Friday, actually. So I didn't really expect him to come last night either.. But seriously 4 minutes after I had written a Facebook status about how I wondered where he was since he obviously didn't have time for his girlfriend. Our talk was so-so, it was great seeing him, I miss him every second we don't see each other. I told him that I had enough money now, to stay some extra months, and he seemed happy about that!! :) 


Then the marriage subject came up again... I said that marriage IS important to me, but that I don't wanna discuss it since what is there to discuss?? If he don't want marriage, what can I do about it? I can not force him to marry me in the future. He still said something about not marriage.. And he asked if I was angry. I answered that I was not angry, I was sad. He didn't like that. Then suddenly he ask if I found out his surprise, I said no.  Then he said that he doesn't know if I am stupid or clever, and I answered with the question "why do you change the subject" he said he had not changed the subject and asked if I was still sad, I said I would always be sad about this.. Then he said to me that I already know, and that he had not changed the subject so we were still on the marriage subject.. He then said he would show me something and I do believe he was gonna tell me what it was.. He said again he was sure I know it, but I said that don't show me anything, don't tell me anything, let it be a surprise. And I said honestly that I have NO IDEA what it is!  If he had not said many times that he did not want marriage, I would have guessed that he would ask me to marry him, but since he has previously said that he does NOT want to get married, I do not think that is the right answer.. Sad, but true...


He also said that he does not want anyone else, not now, not ever. That I would be his girlfriend(!) all our lives.. I dont wanna be a girlfriend all my life, I wanna be a WIFE someday.. But I dont want anyone else, so if he does not wanna get married, I just have to live my life as a girlfriend no matter if I wanna or not.. Cause he is all I want. I can honestly say I did not feel exactly like this before. I can not compare these feelings with the feelings I had for Hasan, they are soooo two different things. But I do believe I have a real future with Halil, I did not believe that with Hasan.... 
But we do agree on one thing though:  No children.  


Other than that, not so much is happening, I am still happy about my money, but I will give it all to my father and then he can transfer it to me when it is time to apply for ikamet, even though  I have no freakin' idea how to do that!!! I only  know that I need to have 500$ pr. extra month in a turkish bank account. It was easier before when you could just get a fake change office receipt. 
Really I am thinking about everything I have to do before I leave, now that I am gonna stay LONG !  But the good thing is that now I don't have to sit in Turkey and worry about bills getting larger in Norway... BUT, I am coming in the winter, I did not expect these money and the possibility to stay so long so I only ordered one suitcase, which I was gonna have winter clothes in.. Now I have to bring summer clothes too !! Shoes are not important, I can just buy sandals for 5 TL anyway. But other clothes.. Like dresses, bikini's (not that I really wear bikini) and stuff like that.  And I need to clean my whole apartment from top to bottom, since my sister is gonna use it. Buy necessary things like hygene products.. But it's all worth it when I am in my boyfriend's arms again, a day I have been waiting for. I have to say that it has been much easier when we have been talking everyday. Me and Hasan talked like, one time every 2.week, on the phone. Never in MSN. Sercan and me talked in MSN like once a week, maybe less. So, it really is different with Halil. Marriage or no marriage, this is the boy I want my life to be with.