Karen's:))

Well, I have given my boyfriend situation 2 days, 2 days where I haven't been in MSN, only a little in Facebook with my phone, and we are good now. We had a long talk today about really everything and nothing, and it's good :)  I feel I couldn't go longer without talking with him cause I missed him already.

My African banana :)
We talked a bit about jealousy and such also, and cheating. Both of us have a zero-tolerance for cheating this time. I have done my fair share of mistakes, I don't know so much about his relationship-past but judging from my own I don't want to know about his, cause I know people can make horrible mistakes in one relationship that doesn't mean that they would make in the next. The phrase "once a cheater always a cheater" is not true.

I don't wanna know EVERYTHING about him. I don't wish to know how many he had sex with, wether or not he cheated on his ex, things like that. I don't care. As long as he is only with me now, and doesn't cheat on me in the future, it's enough for me. Our official date is 02.09.2011, and what he did before that is none of my business. He has been in Gaziantep since that too so I'm not really worried either.

I do know more than I wish to, though. Cause we were talking about everything between heaven and earth when I was together with Hasan, when me and him were not together. So he knows a thing or 10 about me he probably wish he didn't know too. If I ever thought we would end up together I think I would have limited my brutal honesty about 10 notches. But on the up-side... When he knows it all, he can't say that "I heard that..." either:)   But neither can I. I love that he is jealous ;-)

Time is still moving, allthough very slowly now. My laptop went to hell again so I can't talk to him whenever I want, I am now depending on my parent's laptop, which I can not use when ever I feel like it. I miss my boy and I miss Alanya too.  Next year will be different than this year, and last... Or actually all other years. Next year I am gonna make sure NO ONE knows who I am :)  Exept for those who already does...

Anyway, I am still, and still, and still waiting to set my feet on Turkish ground, the second I am inside Antalya airport, I will be the happiest person alive, I do believe so. Allthough we are not going to Alanya for a change, it will be great. I am soooo looking forward to seeing something new.. But it still wouldn't surprise me the slightest bit if we ended up in Alanya anyway. I love Alanya in the winter, so much. People say it's like a ghost town, and that might be right for tourists who go there in the summer and only to party.. But I love it when it is quiet and relaxing. It's so much better than in the summer. :) :)