Great day !

I seem to have a lot of them lately, which I am absolutely not complaining about! I am really happy that things are finally going my way :)  
I went shopping today with my mother and sister (yes I know I said I will stop shopping, but I just cannot) and I got to say; I love sale!  I got a lot for very little. I used about 1000,-  (Norwegian) and I got;


2 pairs of jeans
2 shirts
1 sweater
1 dress
3 hipsters
1 pair of shoes
1 pair of earrings


I was gonna buy boots... But then I saw some amazingly beautiful pumps and I am so weak for those kinds of shoes. If I see a pair I fall in love with, I just can not go anywhere before I buy them, no matter how little money I have. But it's the way of life- my life.




Half an hour later, it is 17 days until I am leaving.. I feel like it's not long ago that I ordered my tickets, 16 weeks ago (or 15, I am not sure) but it felt like forever, now it is just 2 1/2 weeks left until I am in the arms of my boyfriend again!:)
I have been so stressed lately, really my head has been close to exploding and I have actually managed to get depressed in what is suppose to be one of the happiest times of my life. But I am stressing about everything. Specially money and Ikamet. Why I am stressing about money I really don't know. I have saved 14 000 on my dad's account for Ikamet, and 10 000 on my own account, + I get 6000 every month give or take. But of course I am still stressing, I am always stressing.  Halil keeps telling me he doesn't worry about Ikamet because something will happen that makes the stress go away in the future, but unless we are getting married (which he does not want- ever) there is no chance what so ever that it will NOT be a stress in the future... And I am just LUCKY for being able to have this much money, I can not picture any time in the future I will have money to put in a Turkish bank ever again unless I win the lottery... Soooo if he is not suddenly rich, it is a eternal stress..

Well, what can I do about it anyway.. Just got to take one day at the time.. I have not seen Halil for 1 1/2 week now.. And we have had a couple of arguments lately. Not only his fault but not only mine either.. All though I might have mentioned that he should be like my ex in one area... I didn't mean it, I was just very angry and I know how jealous he is at my ex... I can understand why that pissed him off, I would have gone mental if he said that to me...   But mostly we have nice conversations.  Oh and by the way, he is not like my ex, not at all... I fell in love with him cause he is like no one I have ever met, and I don't want him to be any other than who he is now.
I think most our fights have been a result of my insecurities, cause we have spoken so little lately.. We used to speak for hours and hours every day on MSN, and on the phone.. Well we still talk hours on the phone but not in MSN... Of course I am being paranoid, I know that very well myself but I don't appreciate changes. Not when I am in Norway. I hate long distance relationship, I think jealousy, scepticism and paranoia is 10 times worse when we are many countries apart. 

It's all gonna be better when I come there... Our relationship is really good. We are nice to each other and we are happy together.. So we have our fights like everyone else, but we fight like 5 minutes and then it's all good again. 


I love u Halil <3