I spoke a few minutes with Halil today. I don't feel we need to speak so much since we will meet next week anyway, so I have said he should focus on being with his friends instead. He told me he had bought bus ticket to Antalya now, it made me really happy since I have been fucked up lately. I mean like really fucked up. I have twisted everything into that he will maybe not come to the airport, that he don't wanna speak with me, that he doesn't want me.. And for no reason. He has done nothing to even suggest he won't come. He has really just been wonderful and telling me to not worry, that he will of course come, that he loves me and all of that.. So what the hell happened to me, I seriously don't know. I have been a total loony, and I even got HIM to worry that I wouldn't come. I had to get a grip, I have no reason at all for thinking like this. TOTAL unnecessary paranoia. I have actually never been THIS paranoid before. I have NEVER worried about whether or not someone would come to the airport to meet me... But then it should also be said that no one has been in Gaziantep, only in Alanya, and I have always gone there by myself. If for example Hasan had not come, I know where he lives. How could I ever find Halil in Gaziantep? Would not be possible, since I don't know the place, and I have never seen his house.
He will be in Antalya at 4 o'clock, I will be there at 2:30, so now we just need to decide if I should meet him at the airport or at Otogar in Antalya. Quite frankly I don't see the necessity in him coming to the airport. His bus goes directly to Antalya, if he is gonna come to the airport he has to stop at the main road, take a taxi to the airport, meet me, take a taxi back to the main road and wait for the bus (or if we take taxi all the way) so get to Antalya. It will of course be easier if I just take a taxi to Otogar and meet him there. Probably I won't have to wait so long anyway. My plane lands at 2:30, then I need to buy visa, then it is passport control, and picking up baggage, so if I use a little extra time in the TaxFree I will be out by 3:30, if I then take a taxi to Antalya it takes about 20 minutes, then I just have to wait 20 minutes for him there. MUCH easier. It doesn't have to be hard when it can be easy!
I wanna stay one extra day in Antalya, simply because I wanna see the place. Rent a car and drive around. Because when I left for Gaziantep, I realized that I had never really seen TURKEY.. I had seen ALANYA. And Alanya is built for tourists. Everything is made so tourists will like it there. How people dress, how people talk, prices, discos, bars, shops... Everything.. While when I was on the bus, and even on the bus stations, everything was different. I loved Gaziantep. Much nature, big markets with prices I have yet to see similar to, no discos...
But one thing I found very stupid there was that there was several hotels we could not stay at since we were not married!! But right next to those hotels, there was PORN CINEMAS! I don't really have a problem with porn, but porn CINEMA? It's kind of disgusting, Halil said that the men all do their "business" at the same time there, and that is actually very... well... It is not normal, not in my book anyway. But it is Turkey... Porn cinemas are ok but staying in a hotel before marriage is evidently not ok... But sex before marriage is a sin, so... Originally I would have to be "clean" until marriage but that ship has sailed a looooong time ago.
Anyway, now I need to practice a little more grammar..
Goodnight world :)
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