Save-mode!

I am in total save-mode- again!  I feel I really don't do anything else but save, save and save. Well, it must be done, since I am traveling as much- and long- as I am. The person who said that love is free, really have never had a long distance relationship before! :P

But I have bought a piggy bank at least, and it can't be opened without being broken. Which is a good thing, cause then I will not open it until it's full, and then I will put the money on a closed account which I can't control from the internet.

It's in my parent's place too, so then sometimes money just falls in ;p   I know how much I will be able to save the next 3 months, BUT I have to buy a new laptop as well, cause this one is singing on it's last notes. It gets too warm, so I have spent much money for new chargers, which just melts after a couple of days. It sucks big time. But what to do anyway, it's not like it's the first laptop I had that broke. My last laptop just got bluescreen and never saw the light of day again :(

Well, time is still going, even though it's going slow... It's now exactly 13 weeks until I am in Antalya airport. 13 weeks on the day. New years eve, first time since 2006 I get to spend it with my boyfriend. Not that it was a fun new years eve anyway, we were like 5 or 6 people in a house far from civilization all of which got drunk before the time of 10 (except Alex and me) and the funniest think was a porn movie.. Happy new year. The year before that I was sick with throat infection and fever. So this year I hope will be good, I think so, as long as I am with Halil, it can't be wrong. Only thing I should keep away from is vodka. He can have it for himself. Vodka king.. As long as I dont have to clean puke for the 3'rd time, it will be ok :P

I still find it strange how things can change so much in just one summer. I am still very skeptical, of course.. But that's just how I am. Trust does not come easily for me. The only one I have ever really trusted (boyfriend-wise) is Hasan.. But evidently he didn't trust himself anymore so then it was ok to lie to everybody else, including me. But he doesn't lie so good to me so I can see, and even HEAR, when he lies.  But of course it is easier for me to confront him with it when I am IN Turkey... When I am talking to people on the phone and I hear they lie, I just pretend that I believe it, cause I know that it's no point in discussing things like that on the phone... Like with Sercan, he lied many times on the phone, I pretended to believe him, but trust me, it was hell when I came down there and confronted him with all the lies. My way of handling it... Except for cheating things, this is hell whenever !

Anyway, as to the summer, change is good, and after 4 years with off-on relationship, change was in order. I am truly happy I am such an asshole sometimes, if I wasn't maybe I wouldn't meet Halil either. :)  And also, I do like it that he is quite the jealous boy. ;)   I do not like so much that I am quite the jealous girl!