Back in the... 2008's?

I was looking through my parent's computer yesterday, it's a really really old laptop that they started to use again when no one else was working.. And well, 3 1/2 years ago I put a lot of my pictures there before my camera broke and I lost my memory card, lot's of pictures from me and my old roommate, and Turkey etc- and since then I have not seen those pictures. I even forgot that they existed. So I found a folder on their laptop with my name on it, and there was SO many pictures there. I thought I was gonna die, I wish I could go back in time and have those days for just ONE day. Words can not describe how much fun we had. Well, we were drunk about everyday in the time we lived together, but still it was deadly funny :P

There were a lots of photos I still haven't gotten in my own laptop cause it was limited space on the CD I used to burn these pictures. But the pictures from Turkey that I have, words can not describe how happy I was to see them. It was pictures I thought I had deleted when me and Ine stopped being friends for a while. Really, if I could only turn back this time.. It was the best year of my life I think. The fun never ended, and Turkey was more fun too. Even though me and Hasan had our drama even back then, it was still fun. No one knew me, no drama (except for between us :P ) ... And we never thought about the consequences of what we did. That should maybe be a bad thing, but there and then it was fun... And as I said, we were drunk all the time. One night we decided that we would be SOBER one WHOLE weekend... This was a Thursday. We were sitting at home, just looking at the internet and asked each other; If we are not gonna party, what the hell are we gonna do??   Then we looked at tickets for Turkey, there was one cheap one, like really cheap, 2 days later. We bought it. Not thinking about the fact that we had not checked bus that day (which didn't go by the way) and the fact that we didn't have money for anything, except 50€ each to spend in Turkey for 2 weeks. For some strange reason we managed it, and even though we didn't have money we still ended up drunk everyday and we never went hungry !!! :P  (My camera broke cause of Hasan, that's why the pictures are so bad)

I didn't really like Hasan so well on this holiday cause honestly he was a jackass, I saw him maybe 6 times in 2 weeks. I wish I still had the pictures from the holiday before this one, but I deleted every picture with Ine in them unfortunately. I miss the time I was 20 for sure.. But I am sure that in about 5 years I will miss the time I was 23.  But the difference is that now I think about things, I think about consequences, I don't really do anything spontaneous (except for the Gaziantep-trip), and it sucks, cause normally I am a spontaneous person. I don't like what I am doing now, always being safe. But on the other hand, in that time I didn't have a real relationship I had to save for either, I was there 2 weeks at the time, maximum 3, and I was together with Hasan but it was not LOVE at that time.


Well talking about love, I was of course speaking with my boyfriend last night, it is so great that we can speak every night, and last night we talked about 4 1/2 hour, maybe it was 5. In the end I fell asleep a littlebit, and he said many nice things about how he could never be with anyone else ever again and how much he loves me, stuff like that. We had a disagreement as well but we can't agree on everything in this world.  All in all, I love him <3