Karen's:))

Well, things have been kind of chaotic the last couple of days. Some days ago me and Halil agreed that we would not speak on Friday, Saturday or Sunday, cause I wanted to be with some of my friends. But on Saturday he came on MSN, when I was sleeping- of course.  First he was writing me, asking if I was sleeping.. (I saw this when I woke up) and he had then written something like "You still didn't delete pictures of your ex, or your many many exes. I am so angry at you now and it's better for us if we don't meet a little"

I didn't know how to react, first I wrote "Screw you" ... But of course he was right to get angry about the fact that I hadn't deleted the pictures of Hasan, but honestly I had not really thought about it. Cause they were so old, and they were in Alanya-albums that I had not looked at for AGES! I told him he is right, I tried to delete everything but I just got error messages, so I made a new Facebook profile.   But he did not speak to me. Not at all, actually he turned off his phone when I called and all, he was online in Facebook one night, and didn't even write to me.  I turned from having a bad conscience to really getting annoyed and angry.  Then suddenly I get a message from him in Facebook where he congratulated me for "Passing his test" and that he normally was like this for a month to test his new relationship.. I GOT SO ANGRY, and I will honestly say if he acted like an asshole that wouldn't speak with me for a month, he wouldn't have a girlfriend to speak with when he decided to be normal again.

I spoke a little with Hasan on the phone yesterday actually, just a little, but it slipped out when I had a discussion with Halil. He was gonna say something and didn't "remember" what it was in English, I said he should say it in Turkish then. And the response I get is  "Haha you don't even understand Turkish" ... Like screw you.. And I said "Hasan and me always speak Turkish and I asked him on the phone today how my Turkish is, he said good".. Safe to say he was not happy about hearing that.   Anyway, my lovely boyfriend who say I don't know aaaaany Turkish said he could teach me. I said NO THANK YOU, but he started to speak Turkish to me, thinking I would not understand him. BUT what he did NOT expect was that his girlfriend could respond to everything he said. I do believe he was a little surprised. So IN YOUR FACE!

Well, I am no expert of course, I do not know it fluent- yet.  But I am practicing. I don't like speaking, really not. But I would say I can write pretty good, and I do understand more than little. I am able to have a conversation in Turkish, though not perfectly.. But to that I am thinking "Turks don't know perfect English (at all) so if I don't know perfect Turkish it's no problem. As long as I can make myself understood"


I am really looking forward to this weekend. I will not save any money (haha) cause I wanna spend money on me for a change. My friend is gonna tattoo me, I am tattooing "Sezgin 02.09.2011" , his last name and the date we got together.  One would think that I would be clever enough to NOT tattoo a name- AGAIN, but I guess I am not.  But the truth is that I still don't regret the tattoo with Hasan's name, and I wish I didn't make a cover up (the ugliest in the world by the way), but I was engaged to Sercan and he didn't want me to have the name of my ex in my neck so what could I do anyway. I don't really care what others might think anyway.

We also decided that we will stay in Marmaris for sure. I miss Alanya actually, but I wanna see something new. Also, my parents might come, but my mom don't wanna go to Alanya again and neither one of them wish to go to Istanbul. Of course I wanna go to Istanbul, I could meet my Arka Siradakiler loves <3
I am now trying to find some Christmas job, it really wouldn't hurt to have some extra cash for the winter.