Just too bad we have to end up having these serious future discussions. I don't wanna have them in MSN but it ends up with it anyway... Well, the latest is that we are never getting engaged nor married, it has it up's and down's I guess.. Normally I don't really care about marriage. I have never really felt like I NEED to get married to anyone. Cause it's not for everyone I guess. But then I got a boyfriend in Turkey and it changed. I still do not care so much about marriage or not, and if it was not for the fact that he can't get permanent visa here unless we are married, I wouldn't think about it even. Sure if he asked I would have said yes, but it's not something that would have been important to me... But then, since we now agree that we won't get married I guess we just have to find another way to be together. I don't really care where it is. It would just be nice to have him here someday. But there is always holiday visa, and if that's our only option, well... Then we'll just have to deal with that when the time comes. But no matter what I believe that if we are really meant to be, we will find a way to be together no matter where in the world it is. As long as I know I can trust him, and that I am sure he loves me, is really all I care about.
The most important thing really isn't where we are, where we live, if we are married, if we have children... The most important thing is that we love each other, and that we are happy together.
I get very happy just by small things he say:) Today was a wonderful "date" :):):) But I still don't know where we will stay. It's up to him cause I don't really care, I can stay in a box for all it matters... But it would just be nice to KNOW... One day it's Marmaris, then its Istanbul, then Marmaris, then Istanbul... So we'll see. Still a long wait left so. Que sera sera.
Edit: I lied, I do wish to be engaged some day. But if that's not gonna happen, there is nothing I can do:)
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