Karen's:))

Sometimes I kind of believe that I am a very mean girlfriend... We had a MSN date yesterday, and I can not really remember it cause I was not exactly sober at that point, but as far as I can remember, I wasn't very nice to him... I swear, that boy has a patience like no other I have seen in my life. Specially if I think about all the situations from we met until now.

BUT I have also had my fair share of shit from him too... But it doesn't matter for me cause the only times he have been not so nice have been after a bottle of vodka.. Other than that I am sure he would do anything in the world just to make me happy.

I write mostly about him these days... Probably because he is all I think about now.
I know I haven't been the nicest in the world since we got together, but I am just skeptical, simply because I have never met anyone like him, like this GOOD person. Yea we fight but we have to do that also.. Still I am surprised about his personality. First I didn't believe that he cared so much but, I am sure he would do anything in this world to make me happy.  I hate long distance relationships, it sucks to be this far away with no possibility to kiss him, or hug him or just have his arms around me. I miss his smile, I miss his voice, I miss looking into his eyes... Guess that's what you get for falling in love right. But I try to think that SOON!  Even though it is not soon.

Even this could be my house!! ;)

But now it is his turn to contact me. I am not gonna crawl and always always always be the one to call and stuff. Well he always comes to MSN when I ask and he always answers his phone but I dont wanna be like a desperate girlfriend who always calls. No thank you !

Other than that, I am suppose to go to a party tomorrow, but we'll see. It's pretty far away from here, but my sister could drive me. BUT I am poooooor right now, so I don't really have the economy to buy alcohol.. And how fun is it to go to parties sober when everyone else will be drunk.  I don't like it anyway, I don't even go out sober in Alanya. 2-3 times I did I think.   My sister also got an apartment now, so she will be moving out in a couple of weeks. Then my mom and dad will be all alone, with their oldest daughter who like to be here all the time even though she have an apartment (hey.. free food, free internet, satellite TV...)  I have lived by myself for 5 years now.. My sister moved away for school for 2 years, now she is back home, and she will move again, and my other sister also is living away for school...

+ I Love you Halil Sezgin.
- Until forever.