Crappy!

Thats how I truly feel today... Well, another round of antibiotics, two kinds, actually.
It's now how I want this life to start seriously. But what can I do.. If I'm not better after this I'll go for another check-up at the hospital, and if they STILL don't find something wrong I'll go to Norway to my own doctor cause I trust her 110% and she is very competent. Of course I won't stay in Norway, just go there for a check and then go back. It's worth it. I don't want to but if I have to, I have to.. I talked with Halil about it and he doesn't like the idea either, for some reason he is worried that I dont wanna come back. ..

But by all meens, I have a wonderful fiance and he is taking good care of me. He has gone to the pharmacy again, and now he is out finding ingredients for dinner, which HE will make today :)  I was crying a bit earlier today cause I felt so crappy and I am so tired of this whole sick-situation, and it was good to have fiance-arms to cry in, but I wish it was my mom a little. I am 23 years old but the best place in the world when I am not feeling sad, sick, or depressed, is with my mom and dad.  So right now I miss them both very much even though I saw them 11 days ago.. 11 days, how fast time has gone already. 

Halil was at guitar lesson today, he doesnt like his teacher but I say he have to go anyway.. But I can understand him though, he gets like 25 minutes of learning how to hold a guitar, who wanna pay for that ?  I already know how to hold a guitar and I don't even like guitars.

But I wanted to murder him this morning. Not really but close... He wakes me up like 9, AGAIN, and asks me to wake up, wake up and wake up. I didnt wanna but in the end I said ok, if you clean and make breakfast. He said ok, and cleaned for a while, but the breakfast ended on me, but it's ok.. Its nice that he can at least eat what I make.

:)