Sad...

I can't sleep.. I am just sitting and watching my fiance sleep peacefully while my tears are running.. I wish I could be him right now... 


Everything was going great, our plans were set... We were gonna apply for Ikamet in the middle of March, get married in the middle of May, then use the Ikamet money for our honeymoon.. 
But no..
New Ikamet rules from 01.02.2012 says that I now have to show that I have a valid travels insurance for my whole stay here..  It should be easy, right.. But I do not have that !! 
First of all, my insurance ends in May, second of all, it just covers up to 60 days.. I would have to pay more to get it longer, which then would end up in that I would not have enough money for Ikamet. So what will I do then.


I don't wanna go home, the feeling of not being here with him is so terrible.. I dont know HOW much I have been crying in Norway because he was not there.. I didn't even know it was possible to miss someone that much. So terrible when we had a computer screen between us when all I wanted was to kiss him and have his arms around me. FINALLY we had the chance of a REAL life, and now this.   And we will be married, I wanna have a life with my husband.


He doesn't know anything about it.. We had such a nice day that I didn't wanna say anything. I am just looking at him now and imagining the life we should have, that we won't have and it breaks my heart into a million small pieces, and I really have no idea what to do right now... My head is spinning, I feel like I cannot even breathe.. I DONT WANNA LEAVE !!!!!!!!!!!!