Yihuuuu!

FINALLY I have told Halil that I am coming !!! It felt incredible good to finally say it. I have known for almost 2 weeks which date I am coming but it was not in any way possible to tell him that, but now I have. My heart almost stopped yesterday when I saw his Facebook was back, I tried to call him then but his phone was closed, but when I went back to the laptop he had written me a mail in Facebook, honestly I was so happy that I wanted to cry, and then he came to MSN and I could actually see him, words can not describe how happy I was. It's like the past 2 weeks were forgotten, but they were horrible, I can say for sure that I have never cried that much in my whole life.

I really hope he was happy about the fact that I am coming, but as the hobby pessimist I am, I am not keeping my hopes up exactly. He said he was though.. Where we are gonna live, I have no idea... If it will be Alanya or not, I don't really care, as long as I can be with him. I don't have anything in Alanya anymore.. The only reason I keep traveling back and forth to Alanya all the time is because I've had Hasan there, also when I was together with Sercan most of the reason why I wanted to go to Alanya was cause Hasan was there and I didn't wanna let him go.   Now I have actually found a really great boy who in fact has made me for REAL let Hasan go, so wherever he wanna be, I will be too..  I just hope it will not be like my previous relationship with a bunch of broken promises and stuff cause THIS I can not handle again, and it has already been a couple of those, with for example coming to MSN and keeping the phone open..

Not good, not good...